Freedom!

Freedom is different for everyone. I want to be free. You want to be free. Guess what? Freedom is free! It just takes effort and understanding what freedom means to you. Does it mean letting go of all restrictions? Maybe just to have a moderate restraint? Perhaps, to be free, you need complete control of every action of yours. If it's something that must be contained, in order to be free of that unwanted characteristic one must control it with rules. If one cannot express himself because of restrictions laid upon his life style, he must let it go, so he can be free to be.

Freedom is different for everyone. To know what it is for you, it takes a many a try to discover how certain types of lifestyles work for you. Birds are free with the wind beneath their wings. Horses are free with running into the fields. Be free. It takes time and experience, but be free!

Not good enough, eh?

If potential is only what we could do and not what we actually do, why do people expect it? Can't it be enough to say you have done your best and finito? I had written a paper for my English professor and he was unsatisfied with my efforts. Although, he says, this paper is amazing and has talent splashed all over it like a fresh canvas painted with awesome colors, you still need to add more examples to make it more relate-able in our world. I can't believe after having written a six page essay (well five, actually), He wanted more? Potential, he says. This paper has potential to become something fantastic. What a thrill! Why can't the paper just stay talented in its own naked words. No clothing, or fixing, should be applied. Tell that to the ones in authority. Ha! See, that's the problem. We have little say in his decisions. The students must obey to receive that A in the class. Perfect. Now, we students, have become mere robots, not fighting for our simple talents. Leave it be! You wish.

Updates

And then again, there comes the night creeping into our world. It is time to say goodnight, but first let me tell you what my life has been like over the past month! About my crush, it has disappeared within the wind. I have no idea how it left, it just did. I have no questions. I am happy that it did. Now I can focus more on my work, and just being myself wherever I am.
To complete a month of events, I must summarize. I am in college at the present moment, taking four courses, mostly ridiculous ones, such as music appreciation, Hebrew *language, and student development. The fourth course is not as bad as it could have been. English provides a place for me to express myself in writing. The only complaint I have is that I have to read this book which I will soon have to analyze for my professor. Unfortunately, I am a slow reader and have no patience for books. My friend says that I must practice my reading starting with newspapers and articles from magazines. I don't intend on learning to enjoy reading anytime soon... but if I ever do develop a taste for it, I'll surely let you all know.
As for the holidays, It has been lovely, and very relaxing. I am waiting for the holiday of Succot, where all the people come together and celebrate their past (forefathers).

Until next time.

Crush me now!!!!

I must admit, I have a crush. A huge, enormous, most intense crush! And I have no idea of how to rid this crazy obsession from my mind. It's so disturbing to my peace, my life. Every few minutes my thoughts surpasses him one or more times. And I can't help it, or I just don't want to. It's hard to let go of an addiction. It becomes your second nature, your home "away from reality"... It can be fun to run away, but as soon as it starts interfering with your life, your every thought, then you know it's time to get some sort of help... It's called REHAB!... But, I am not sure how rehab for a crush, an infatuation, would even start! Maybe it's the confrontation of telling him directly, "I have a crush on you"? Or maybe it's just surrendering to the fact that you won't ever be with him? It's a shame, all that energy I put into our "fantasy relationship" that existed only in my psyche. Yes, I am heartbroken, and I am trying to get over it. As soon as something else comes into my life, someone maybe?, then I'll finally rid him.. or not... we shall see.

I Dreamed Last Night of You.

Finally,
a dream come true.
wanting forever, feeling like I've never.
Being touched by you,
by your hands.
So endearing,
how pleasant feeling.
The touch.
The magical touch.
So I feel, but is it real?

Dream, or not to dream?

Somehow, even though it's exciting to entertain the idea of love, I feel that it's of no use. It may be because my life, at the very moment, is in fact, boring, and so I am resorting to an alternate world. A world of wonderous imagination. But what is wrong with that? It's great to keep the mind entertained. But it is very important not to expect anything from it. If you do, you will most probably get heart-broken. Since life, in its all, both, goodness and badness, doesn't fulfill dreams of ours. It's up to us to make it a reality. And, if there is no possible way for it to come true, it doesn't mean that the imagination has to end.

Relax and Enjoy.

Summer's smile is kind
it greets you with warmth.
Sprinklers flowing inside the wind,
let the wind flow.
The simple laugh~
express yourself.
Sit by a tree
enjoy its wave,
its shade.
Smile with summer's kind smile.